The Signs I Almost Missed

After Connor died, all I wanted was a sign.

Something—anything—to let me know he was still out there somewhere.

But nothing came.
Or at least… that’s what I thought.

For most of my life, I had been able to feel energy. Sense things. Pick up on what wasn’t being said. But when it came to Connor?

Nothing.

And that silence felt louder than anything.

I remember sitting with a group of women who had also lost loved ones. One by one, they shared how they could still feel them—still sense their presence.

When it got to me, I quietly said, “I don’t feel him.”

And underneath that one word was a thousand others:

Why them and not me?
Had I done something wrong?
Was I not worthy enough?

But here’s what I didn’t understand then:

The signs were there.

I just didn’t know how to see them.

Because sometimes the way we expect connection… isn’t the way it comes.

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In the full piece, I share the moments I almost dismissed—the ones that, looking back, feel anything but random. The subtle, strange, and sometimes undeniable ways Connor found to reach me… and how I nearly missed all of them.

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The Signs I Almost Missed

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