How Did I Ended Up in a Documentary About Consciousness?
I went to the Monroe Institute expecting something extraordinary to happen to me. But when I started questioning why I was even there, a series of strange coincidences, shared experiences and unexpected connections began to shift my perspective. Maybe the real story wasn’t just about consciousness. Maybe it was about what was happening between us.
How Did I Ended Up in a Documentary About Consciousness
I arrived at the Monroe Institute expecting to explore altered states of consciousness—and maybe finally learn how to leave my body on command. Instead, somewhere between the Bed in a Boxes, bouts of vertigo and twenty-four strangers asking questions no one could fully answer, I discovered that the most meaningful part of the experience might not happen with my eyes closed.
How Did I End Up in a Documentary About Consciousness?
What began as unexplained vibrations, vivid dreamscapes and out-of-body experiences became a lesson in trusting myself. When a forgotten book finally gave me language for what I was experiencing, it also opened a path toward the Monroe Institute—and a documentary I somehow knew I was meant to be part of.
How Did I End Up in a Documentary About Consciousness?
What began as a few strange words appearing in my mind upon waking soon became a pattern I could no longer ignore. I still wasn’t ready to call it mystical—but I was beginning to wonder whether curiosity might matter more than certainty, and where our ideas truly come from.
How Did I End Up in a Documentary About Consciousness?
I wasn't searching for spiritual experiences. I was trying to heal.
What began as a journey through grief, loss, and unresolved pain slowly evolved into something I never expected. Strange messages arrived in dreams. Unfamiliar words appeared in my mind and turned out to be real. A warning about a motorcycle accident arrived weeks before the event itself.
For years, I searched for rational explanations. Some experiences could be explained away. Others couldn't.
This chapter explores the unexpected experiences that emerged as I healed—and the questions that forced me to reconsider what might be possible.
How Did I End Up in a Documentary About Consciousness?
Four years ago, I had everything I thought I was supposed to want: a successful career, a beautiful home, a loving family and a life that looked good from the outside. Yet beneath it all was a persistent feeling that something was missing.
What began as a healing journey eventually led me down a path I never could have imagined—one filled with experiences that challenged my assumptions about consciousness, reality and what may be possible. In a few weeks, I'll be heading to The Monroe Institute to participate in a documentary called Instructions for Leaving.
This is the story of how I got here.
Welcome to My Story: Raw, Real, and Dreaming Big
Let me start with a question: have you ever looked at your life and thought, How did I get here? That’s pretty much the recurring theme of mine. I’ve made choices that seemed like a good idea at the time (mostly), stumbled into grace I didn’t deserve, and tripped over life lessons so hard I’m surprised I didn’t sprain something.
But somewhere between the chaos and the clarity, I found threads of meaning. I found healing. I found breathwork. And somewhere along the way, I realized life isn’t just what happens when you’re awake—dreams, the ones we have at night and the ones we chase during the day, hold just as much power to shape us.
Signs
What if grief isn’t the end of the connection? This piece explores signs from loved ones after death, spiritual awakening, and the moment everything I believed started to shift.
The Signs I Almost Missed
It All Begins Here