The Hardest Thing I've Ever Tried to Heal
For most of my life, I believed self-love was waiting for me in a smaller body.
I spent years dieting, tracking macros, counting calories, and chasing a version of myself that always seemed just out of reach. When I eventually gained nearly sixty pounds despite doing everything "right," I was forced to confront a painful truth: I hadn't loved myself when I was thin either.
This isn't a story about weight gain.
It's a story about self-worth.
About the beliefs we inherit, the standards we spend a lifetime chasing, and what happens when we finally stop waiting to love ourselves.
Low Light
The Day My Body Interrupted My Life
What if your body isn’t broken—but trying to tell you something? This piece explores the connection between emotional healing, grief and physical symptoms.
Anger Is Not the Problem. Silence Is.
Anger isn’t a flaw—it’s information. What we suppress doesn’t disappear, it gets stored in the body. This piece explores emotional suppression and the real cost of not feeling.
What We Don’t Heal, We Hand Down
Healing isn’t linear—it ripples. What we don’t heal doesn’t disappear, it gets passed on. This piece explores generational trauma, epigenetics and the patterns we inherit through the body.
Welcome to My Story: Raw, Real, and Dreaming Big
Let me start with a question: have you ever looked at your life and thought, How did I get here? That’s pretty much the recurring theme of mine. I’ve made choices that seemed like a good idea at the time (mostly), stumbled into grace I didn’t deserve, and tripped over life lessons so hard I’m surprised I didn’t sprain something.
But somewhere between the chaos and the clarity, I found threads of meaning. I found healing. I found breathwork. And somewhere along the way, I realized life isn’t just what happens when you’re awake—dreams, the ones we have at night and the ones we chase during the day, hold just as much power to shape us.
Where Hyper-Independence Begins
Hyper-independence often begins in childhood. This reflection explores how early experiences shape the belief that we have to do everything alone—and what it takes to begin changing that.