The song in my dream had something to say about the way I’ve been living.
In my dream, I’m sitting at my desk when a song starts playing.
It’s loud. Not background-music-while-you-answer-emails loud. It fills the entire office, echoing off the walls, and I can hear it everywhere.
It’s a song I love. I’m tapping along, singing, completely enjoying myself.
Then I wake up.
The melody is still there, running through my head, but the title and lyrics have decided to stay in the dream.
This happens to me a lot. I’ll wake up with a song in my head and spend the morning trying to figure out what it is. I recognize the tune. I know I know some of the words. Can I remember enough of them to search for it? Of course not.
That’s how I discovered you can hum a song into Google and have it identify it for you. An excellent development for those of us receiving messages from Spirit but struggling to remember the words.
The song was “Surefire” by Wilderado.
Once I found it, I looked up the lyrics. And there it was:
“I’ve been waiting in the sunshine, looking round like it’s storming.”
Well. That felt personal.
Music is one of the ways I’ve come to recognize guidance from my spirit team.
Sometimes I wake up with a song. Other times, I’ll be going about my day and suddenly start singing something I haven’t heard in years. When that happens, I pay attention, especially to the particular words that keep repeating.
In spiritual language, receiving guidance through words, sounds, or music is often called clairaudience, or “clear hearing.” For me, it can be as ordinary as a familiar song showing up in my mind at a moment when its words mean something very specific.
I’ve learned to ask: Why this song? Why this part? What’s happening in my life right now?
Usually, I wake up with the music in my head. This time, I was hearing it in surround sound inside the dream, listening to it fill an entire office.
That was new. Clearly, my spirit team wanted me to receive the message loud and clear.
And when I read those lyrics, I understood why they had my attention.
I’m standing in the sunshine, but I’m looking around like I’m in a storm.
Starting my own business and putting myself out into the world this way has brought up a massive amount of fear and self-doubt.
It’s one thing to tell people you’re a healer and a channel. Even getting comfortable saying those words out loud took me a long time. It’s another to build a business around it, sign a lease, ask people to pay you, and trust yourself enough to keep going when you don’t know how it will turn out.
I worry about whether my business will thrive. Whether I can help people in the ways I hope to. Whether enough clients will book for me to pay the rent, cover my bills, and contribute at home.
Jason and I are using money from our savings to help get this business going. I feel the weight of that. These are dollars we worked for, and I don’t have an unlimited amount of time or money to figure it all out.
Underneath those worries is the one I have the hardest time sitting with:
What if it doesn’t work?
What would that mean about this path? About my decision to follow it? About me?
And then comes the thought of having to return to corporate America.
I know how to work in that world. I spent years doing it. But after everything that has changed in me, the thought of returning feels heavy. I’m afraid of having to leave behind work that means so much to me because I can’t make the numbers work.
So I think. I plan. I question myself. I try to figure out what else I should be doing and how to get from where I am to where I want to be.
I can spend so much time worrying about whether I’ll get to keep this life that I barely let myself enjoy living it.
That was what the song brought into focus.
I have an office. I’m doing work I care deeply about. People are trusting me with their dreams, their questions, and the parts of themselves they’re trying to understand. I get to bring together things I once didn’t even know were possible.
There was a time when I had no idea I could do any of this.
Now I’m doing it, and I’m so busy asking whether it will be enough that I keep overlooking what is already here.
I don’t want to dismiss the financial part. The rent is real. So are the bills. Gratitude doesn’t pay them, and I still need to make thoughtful decisions about my business.
But worrying about the future has started taking up more room than the life happening in front of me.
When I read that line, I felt my spirit team asking me to notice where I was standing.
Could I let myself enjoy this part? Could I recognize how far I’ve come without immediately calculating how much farther I have to go?
Could I have a beautiful experience helping someone and allow it to be beautiful, without following it with, Okay, but how do I get more people to book?
That last one is harder than I’d like it to be.
I teach people to reconnect with themselves, to listen, to be present with what’s happening within them. Meanwhile, my own mind is several months down the road, reviewing expenses and preparing for disasters that haven’t happened.
Sometimes the healer needs a song blasted through an entire dream office.
I believe that where our attention goes, energy flows. When we practice gratitude, notice what’s going well, and celebrate our wins, I believe we create energy that invites more of those experiences into our lives. It also changes how we show up for what’s already here.
And yet, here I was, giving so much of my attention to everything I was afraid of.
What I heard in this message was: Look at what you have right now.
The opportunity to try. The work I get to do. The people I get to meet. The freedom to build something that reflects who I’ve become.
I worked hard to get here. I went through a lot to become someone willing to follow this path at all. I don’t want to look back and realize I spent this whole beginning afraid of its ending.
There are still things to figure out. I’m sure there will be plenty more mornings when I wake up worrying about them.
But now I have that song, and a question I can come back to:
Is it storming right now, or have I forgotten to notice the sun?
If you wake up with a song in your head, I invite you to listen a little closer. Write down the words you remember. Look up the song. Consider what those particular lyrics bring up for you.
You may hear something you need.
And if all you have is the melody, try humming it into Google.
Even Spirit occasionally requires tech support.
Another thread from ny heart to yours.